I can not decide...

This night (and yesterdays evening) I've been thinking about a future cosplay that I wanted to do. But then I thought; Do I REALLY want to do this one? (since it's expensive as HELL to cosplay in a good way I want to be 100% sure what I want).

So.. Well, I'll spread it now; My original thought was Riku from Phantasmagoria in his clothes from "Lost in thought... PV". Now I have a whole damn list of other cosplays.. Should I just stick to the first idea? No.. I kind of like another pretty damn badly, but I'm afraid I'm way to fat to pull that one off. But well Riku shows his stomach so does it really matter which stomach-shower I choose?

Okay I think that the three I'm thinking about is much work so I can not just take the easiest one (none of them are easy to make). Omg, I don't knoooooow what to do and I miss my chinaman really badly.. Now I'm off to bed (will probably cry and all that shit because nothing is good at this moment (China y u so far away?!)).

The Blossoming Beelzebub

くちづけ

Well hello there.. I drawed this and wanted to show something. Sorry that the quality was eaten when I took a photo of the drawing. But yeah, it's Atsushi Sakurai from BUCK-TICK (but it doesn't really look exactly like him because I suck..).

Soon I'll go to training for the first time in weeks..

Why so serious folkis?

I'm sitting in school chillin at the history lesson with old man Sweeney now.

Snape meets...

After Cilla have ruined that warm and cosy moment when Voldemort hugs Draco. I decided to show you guys how wonderful little Snape is doing the right thing to do.. After all, that singing person is against abortion, and he thinks that even rapes happens for a reason.. Yes, you can now tell how retarded that boy is.. Ah, well done Snapie <3

Roadtrip!

Well hello there!
Today me and my mother (yes I hang out with my mother) went on a little roadtrip to Norway and back to Sweden because we (I) had a big fucking craving for new clothes and uhm New Yorker. Therefore we sat our sweet little butts in the car and drove away, I found some nice stuff.. No, I found a lot of nice stuff, but didn't buy all of it (well duuuh, I must have something to buy the next time!). Oh and I really needed something like this, to do something with my mother because I think about him way to much.

And congratulations to me, the night between friday and saturday was the first night I didn't cry since the night between last saturday and sunday. Omg, feels nice, think I will cry later today though.. Because yes, I miss him.. At least I have my wonderful mother and some new clothes to cheer myself up with... Oh, and some pick and mix (sweets (candy) if you didn't know).

Now I'll chill the fuck out here with my unhealthy bag of sweets and watch some cool drama (Oh, reminds me of the film I bought today (Bunraku!!!!!!!1one11)).

P E A C E  O U T !

I am missing you

As the title says..

And also I skipped training today too (feel to sorry about myself) so I stayed home and uhm.. cried and now I'm painting my fingernails in some kind of greyish-poopycoloured colour.. Very nice.. Also I'm thinking about throwing in some blue in my hair tomorrow because.. I have nothing better to do and my hair is really boring and..

Oh, wait, soon there is time for some liberty from school! Really nice, but I have to do something. Want to meet awesome people and uh.. Want to meet "far, far away" again and also other people (look at my links on the side, good examples of who I want to meet).

Now I'll paint my nails a little more, see you another time!

Trying to remember how it was before...

Good evening everyone!

Think that my updating will be better from now on, since I'm now alone again. So what have I done today? I've been to school, I walked home, I tried to cut my boyfriends hair, I ate with him, I helped him decide wish necktie he would buy, I went to a café, I went to the station, I cried, I cried a little more, and then I cried more and then I cried. Have I mentioned that I've cried today? Now you know.

The reson you may ask. I'll tell you that it's because he will go back to China in a couple of days, we will not see eachother in a long time. I cried because now I have to get home to an empty apartment and sleep in an empty bed. I will not have anyone to eat or laugh with, I will not have anyone wiping my tears away. I have not been alone in like three and a halv week and now, alone. And I miss him..

Will stop this wining now and I will try to finish my essay in history now, but it's so hard and my eyes are so tired thanks to all my silly crying before (I think I have to mention that I barely cry whatever happened, not like this, so.. I'm not usually this weak, but now.. haha).

My life before having friends and boyfriend:

Long time, no see!

I don't have time to update here (as I said one billion times already). Just making a quick update telling you all that I'm studying all the time when I'm not sleeping (I eat and study at the same time). Also I'm not alone so when I'm not studying I have to socialize with my guest.

Right now I study some psychology because I have a test tomorrow and I must write a little history because it should be all done by wednesday morning, also I'm waiting for food and in the background there's a movie.
I will be better at updating soon (maybe)...

P E A C E  O U T !

Another list

I'm sitting and trying to learn all the swedish necessary for the test tomorrow, also I'm thinking about writing a little more on my essay about the Holodomor and yeah, I should write a little on my "creative writing". Also I should answer the long and wonderful letter that I got a couple of days ago. All this while skipping training (one; I have to much to do with school, two; my stomach is hurting really bad, three; my boyfriend surprisingly showed up out of nowhere).

So, see you later aligator, I have to study hard now!

F R E D

Todalo!

I'm trying to work hard when it comes to my History assignment. It is interesting, but I'm not sure if I'm doing it right.. Though, right now I feel like this:

when thinking about that assignment from hell! Now I must try to find out events that happened after my event and then write a little bit more about the events before my event..

I'm sorry I havn't updated here in a while. I had almost no access to internet this weekend because I was on a party on this friday, went home saturday and back sunday.. Also I can not get the time to update here now, because I have another guest.

Can't write more now because I'm in school now.. Well, I'm sorry for my bad updating, really I am.

Imorgon är det fredag

And I have some pictures of udon to show you, very delicious as said. Tomorrow there will be some serious partying going on and uhm.. Yep, there was a lot of food for these small bowls, but managed to get it in them without getting noodles everywhere. Should have washed the noodles a bit more only so that the "water" would have been clearer. But think they look real good for beeing the first time, and best of all, they tasted good!

Well.. must soon go to bed, because I have school tomorrow, 160min of swedish with or principal... Haha, a lot of our teachers are in Berlin now, so there have been changes in the schedule.

P E A C E  O U T !

I cut my hair..

Because of the tard that is living with me for a couple of more days had managed to take the photos out of my camera instead of copying them I can not show you guys the awesome Udon that we made the day before yesterday. Think they look pretty good and they tasted delicious. I will yell a little at her when she comes home so hopefully I can show you pictures later..

Now I have another picture to show you because I cut my hair (the bang) a couple of minutes ago. Don't mind my face, mhhh derp-face~

Well.. even if my face isn't the prittiest I'm really satisfied with the hair (no, think it's a little to short, but It will grow, so w/e if it is to short now).

I want it to be friday, I must say that, because I'm so tired right now and I want to be able to chill out and have some fun with friends and hopefully have a good time with boyfriend when he's coming back from Italy, haha.

Toe flirting

I can feel your foot on mine "far, far away", you're such a creepy person. She's trying to look innocent and she tries to look like she didn't do anything.. Should I say to her that she had her toes on my toes? No.. jkjkjk..

Trying to do some math, it's okay, but I'm a little to tired and I want to draw or watch a film or maybe just chill out, but NOOO, because I have to do this, there's a test tomorrow morning..

So good bye again, now I'll kill some more time (and myself) with math.. Oh and by the way, bought three movies earlier: "the Butterfly Effect", "Hotel Rwanda" and "Napola". We watched "the Butterfly Effect" and it was good!  

Hotel Rwanda I saw in school last year, it's a good film, you learn much by watching it, I tell you that. And "Napola" I havn't seen, but I think it might be a good film too, terrible and raw, but good.

P E A C E  O U T !

the Brothers Grimm

Ciao!
Sitting in my room in the forest and watching "the Brothers Grimm" and eating unhealthy things (as usual (forever fat)). My life isn't more interesting than this so I will not write much more. Tomorrow I'll try to do some schoolwork and go back to my apartment.. Weekends passing by so fast.. I hate it, really, I just want to have weekend for at least a week and I would sleep that week, nothing more but sleep.

I'll continue watching the film now, hope you all have a great evening, see you!