I can not decide...

This night (and yesterdays evening) I've been thinking about a future cosplay that I wanted to do. But then I thought; Do I REALLY want to do this one? (since it's expensive as HELL to cosplay in a good way I want to be 100% sure what I want).

So.. Well, I'll spread it now; My original thought was Riku from Phantasmagoria in his clothes from "Lost in thought... PV". Now I have a whole damn list of other cosplays.. Should I just stick to the first idea? No.. I kind of like another pretty damn badly, but I'm afraid I'm way to fat to pull that one off. But well Riku shows his stomach so does it really matter which stomach-shower I choose?

Okay I think that the three I'm thinking about is much work so I can not just take the easiest one (none of them are easy to make). Omg, I don't knoooooow what to do and I miss my chinaman really badly.. Now I'm off to bed (will probably cry and all that shit because nothing is good at this moment (China y u so far away?!)).